To Be Understood

The idea of internal and external thinking has always been a concept of great confusion in my life.  Growing up as a child it is difficult to understand things outside of your experience and existence thus far.  So your brain just keeps working the way it functions naturally and you just assume that everyone around you has the same brain functions that you have.  Therefore, as a child I found myself increasingly confused at other children who didn't seem to understand the way in which I approached certain situations. 

I was an internal thinker all the way as a child and continuously turned over concepts and ideas in my brain so I could produce a kind of unique introspection that I so desperately needed.  With this introspection I slowly started to notice that many of my peers were not seeking internal epiphanies like I was.  So thus the confusion started to take hold and I found myself examining that confusion as well.  As I matured this internal examination of concepts gave me the ability to understand the people around me to a greater extent.  So in the end I found it easy to read people and understand the core of their being, which became my comfort when I always found it difficult to understand myself.

Being the external thinker was never a part of my natural brain function and therefore it took me a great deal longer to exercise this type of thinking than anything else in my life.  It is more important than many realize to notice the faults in their thinking and train themselves to navigate the type of thinking that doesn't come naturally.  Luella B. Cook writes about balance throughout your personality, and discovering that through different types of writing.  This cannot be more true!  Had I discovered writing sooner as a tool to exercise my thinking I would have started far sooner than I had.